May 23: Schooled

Something I couldn't learn from school:

Why is this such a tough one?
I learned a lot in school and there's a lot that school couldn't teach me.

I just don't know where I'm going with this. I could say that school couldn't teach me how to love or how to be myself or how tough it is to get a job anywhere... but that seems cliche and dumb.
I learned how to be myself no matter what situation in school and I learned that I want to be an editor or a writer or something along those lines when I grow up. School taught me that I'd rather be home with my husband than learning about biography or what have you. I know what I want to learn and I know where I want to go with the help of school. Now I know that school can be the difference between me and someone who was never educated but was laid off from a 15 year career as what I want to be in the race to a job position.

Why is school so important. I don't understand why so many job offers require 2-3 years of professional experience when you're first starting. It's like all those barista jobs that require 2-3 years of experience with coffee before being able to work there. Excuse my language, but how the HELL am I supposed to get 2-3 years experience if no one will hire me in the first place?

Whenever I look at open positions as an editor it says I need that experience but I know how great I am at detecting errors. I scroll through 9gag.com occasionally and almost every other post says something stupid and I automatically correct it in my head. How are employers supposed to know that I'm a great editor without letting me show them.

And that's where school comes in. At least I have that associates degree that cost me $10,000+ of my own money so I can maybe get a leg up on maybe a third of the competition. Entry level? if only I heard that more often when applying for all these positions. I can't wait to show my real worth in the workplace and not just "uh... I worked as a barista for 2 years and now I want a real job so... I have an associates degree...Hire me?" One day. one day...

Okay. I'm going to go apply for more jobs. Wish me luck.
love, Ellen

I'm back! and some other stuff.

So I tried out the wordpress thing for a while but I don't think I actually like it. I like my format and background stuff here... idk how it's going to work after blogger calls it quits for realzies but I'm just going to see what happens here until then.

I haven't posted generally anywhere in a while. It's been pretty hectic at work and school with it being the end of the semester and with me graduating and all... Anyway, I apologize and stuff.

Recently, I've been thinking so much about cutting my hair off. All of it. Here's my hair as it is now straight:

And here's what I want to do:

Note that I've had it that short before. It's not scary to me to get it cut off, but I just feel so determined to grow it out as long as I can stand it. My last real cut was 2 Decembers ago. Anyway, I'm getting antsy to get it off and I was hoping for some input. Should I keep going or should I wait until May and cut it then?

Some other things that have been on my mind... I don't know why necessarily, but I've been listening to Motion City Soundtrack's Even If It Kills Me album all week. It's really a great album and it's been on repeat on my phone since Monday. I've been especially enamored with this song:

I'll confess to a bathroom dance party to this song while taking the above selfie. I just love it. 

I can't wait until June when Sean and I are going to a family reunion in MN. It's going to be so fun! I can't wait to hang out with his family again and see the Mall of America and go to a Twins Game! I can't wait to get away! I've been itching to just pack up somethings and go somewhere. I love driving for hours and being somewhere different. And I can't wait to move up North this summer! Yay, new places! 

Okay, I think that's enough for today. 

Have a great day!

love, Ellen. 

maxin' relaxin.

It's been so long since I posted. A good 2 weeks, I'd say. Mostly, I've just been hanging out, cleaning the house, working, doing school stuff. Normal. It's my spring break this week and I'm going to go hang out with my friend Erin today and I'm so excited. I haven't hung out with this girl in much too long. I can't wait to gossip and freak out with her like old times. 

On Monday, Sean and I went to the pet store for Reggie food slash new ground for his cage (which he's totally loving) and kitty no-mark stuff because she's dumb and pees in the living room. She also drinks out of the toilet when she has a perfectly delicious automatically-refilling water bowl in the kitchen that she doesn't even have to climb to get to. She loves pushing her water dish around which makes the floor wet and I just don't understand her. At least she's been letting us pet her without attacking our hands now... I want a dog. haha

So I broke broke my new phone. I broke it 6 days after getting it by it slipping off my lap onto the ground in front of the church and then it just got more broken so I'm using Sean's old nugget-of-a-phone with slow connections and gross-sounding ringtones until my new one comes this week. I even bought a  new case for the new one so I don't go smashing it again. It's clean white and I wrote some of my favorite quotes on it. 

One week until the Hub-Cap's birthday! I already have one thing for him, I just have to pick up a couple more things and we'll be partying all over! I just hope I can top last year's awesome present:

This on a tee-shirt! Get it? Transformers + Star Wars? awesome. It's Hot Rod becoming Rodimus Prime! in the fashion of Star Wars? I'm so cool. 

I think I'm gonna go read something. Wanna know the craziest thing? I don't really have any homework over Spring Break. I had my midterm the last day of Brit. Lit., the only thing I had to do for my Creative Writing class is email a short list of personal quirks to the prof., and we never have homework in my Prehistoric Life class. I only have to read through and do a light edit of a story for my Editing class. Super cake. This is the BEST semester! and I'm so glad I'm going out with a bang. I can't wait to have my associates in April! 

Okay, for real this time. Later! Have a super fly week!

love, Ellen

because it's been a week and the hub-cap is blogging next to me.

haha. Okay, I suppose I could talk about how school is going...

Well. It's going well.

I have a prehistoric life class and there's a lady in the class who brings her dog in a purse and it's the cutest little thing! The littlest and cuddliest and I want to stroke it's huge ears and make it wear blinged out hoodies! awwww. And I have to take a field trip to a Dinosaur Museum! Fun-zo!

Also, my Creative Writing prof. is a huge-o hippie. Right out of the flower power era, for sure. Should be fun, but possibly exhausting at the same time. And I think i'm gonna kick butt in that class, seeing as I like to be all write-y and stuff. (See? It's already seeping from me like ketchup from a packet.)

My Editing prof is named Marj which is super fun and also she's on a cruise this week. Lucky her. I think that it's gonna be a fun class. Also, we're taking a field trip to Adobe sometime! I'll see Sean and show off my handsome hub to the class cuz i'm awesome. Correction, we're awesome.

Brit Lit. is alright. I'm learning stuff and it's interesting. I can't wait to read Charles Dickens, though!! awesome. he's awesome.

I hate the winter. When it's too cold to step outside in anything less than 3 to 7 shirts, a large winter coat, both leggings and jeans, thick socks, and heavy boots, I only ever want to stay inside and cuddle. But, to be honest, that's all I really ever want to do. I can't wait until the day I can slip back into my shorts and tee shirts and strut around the park with a kite string in my hand and the warm breeze keeping my cheap, plastic aircraft afloat. I'll probably get a dog so we can walk around and toss a frisbee without worrying about frostbite or losing the little pup in the mounds of powdery white.

If you can't tell, I'm feeling a little... what's the word... creatively wordy  I'm sure that's not right, but it's night and I'm tired of searching. I figured it out. loquacious. duh. Anyway, I'm in a creative writing class and I keep coming up with fantastic ideas and then I can't express them just right. I'll keep working on it and report back eventually. I am, however, proud of my poem entitled Chaos, which is a jumble of synonyms and antonyms of Chaos in a chaotic manner (askew, oddly spaced, chopped up, etc.). I think I might even get a check plus for it. Please, hold your applause.

If I have something really great, I will most certainly share it with my loyal and obviously intrigued readers. But, until I have something substantial that wouldn't require me re-formatting anything, then i'm just going to leave you hanging.

So it's late and, as you might have guessed, I am tired. I kept waking up for no real reason last night and I just want to crawl into bed and be wrapped in soft blankets and Sean's Minnesota-Warm (is that a thing?) arms and drift softly to a dreamland where I don't get pregnant or have to encounter past acquaintances (good or not-so-good) and figure out which one is my real husband or have to wait in line for hours to get a mandatory elbow surgery where you get an anesthesia shot, go into the operating room, come out 3 minutes later with stitches on your wrist area and Oprah is there and it's dark outside and you see a guy from your French class last semester and somehow find a scrapbook of his past and learn that he was once a midget but know that that isn't true because he is normal sized now and you can't just change from midget-dom to average height... dom (true story, happened last night).
but alas, Sean is still blogging about that one time he got hit in the face with an icicle whilst trying to fix our tv satellite. he's fine.

love, Ellen.

simple observations.

i have to start out with a rendition of a song:


oh, the weather outside is frightful,
and all i ever wanna do is cuddle.
And cuz Sean's at work all day,
I will wait, i will wait, i will wait.

okay. back to business:

• i'm okay going 20 miles under the speed limit today because of my poor tires and it's slippery all around.
• i love almond hot chocolate. almond anything, really.
• You HAVE to let the dryer finish when you don't have a laundry thing at your house and have to transport it because if you don't and put it in the bottom of the hamper, it WILL wrinkle and you will have a bad time.
• my house is a mess and for the first time in months, kitty is being super sweet and cuddly. She's even letting me pet her without attacking my hands. jerk.
• Today is the perfect day to start re-watching Lord of the Rings in preparation for Friday. Also because of the weather. Good thing the 1st part of Fellowship is still in the bluray player from that time Sean and I fell asleep to it on saturday.
• i want to be an artist. 
• 2 finals down, 2 to go. and then BREAK. awww yeah.
• the creepy heaters in our apartment are actually awesome. 
• I need to go buy some of Sean's stocking gifts today. or tomorrow. probably tomorrow.

okay, that's all for today. now i'm going to take a nap and clean my house. 

love, ellen.

getting the spirit on.

and do some serious studying.
next week is Finals week. I have 2 monday morning at 7 and 9 and 2 on wednesday at 11 and 1 and then WINTER BREAK! 3 weeks of getting things done that have been put off by school and work.

As of late, Sean and I have been getting our Christmas spirit on by attending (his) work parties and wrapping presents up and getting each other stuff. I can't wait to see his face with what I got him! I still have a reasonable amount in the budget to get him some more things, but i have a few days.

I'm GETTING A SMARTPHONE. guys, i'm moving up in the world. I keep feeling more and more grown up. I'm married and I'm 1 semester from getting my associates degree and i'm becoming more technologically savvy. it's great.

okay, i'm gonna go do the dishes and eat and study.
love, ellen.

not even december

Happy end of november. It's almost christmas season and i'm feeling... normal. I think it needs to be december, snow some, and then i'll be willing to listen to all the christmas music and buying up the rest of Sean's christmas presents. 

I'm just really ready for this semester to be over and be able to relax and enjoy my husband and our cozy apartment and (i guess) our kitten. Only 1 more week of classes, 3 papers, 1 project, and then 3 finals. deep breath. it'll be okay. 

anyway, just wanted to do a quick update. 

love, ellen

sophomore and stuff (36 days)

guys. that's less than 40 days. I'm seriously the most excited. The other day, i came home to find that Sean had written me a note that simply said "I love you, Ellen! Love, Sean" i seriously couldn't ask for a better guy.

Since school started, i've had a lot of people ask me if it was weird that i am only 19 and getting married. Also i've had a number of fellas approach me and flirt so i wave my ring finger around hoping for them to leave me alone... Anyway. Yes, it's kind of weird. but also, i don't care. I'm known to be weird and it's gonna be fine. I cannot wait to just marry this guy.

Also, as i mentioned before, school has started again. Holy. Moses. I have a busy schedule. Not only am i taking 12 credits, working 20-25 hours a week, and planning a trip to MN for Sean's best friend's wedding, but i'm getting married. And i'm going to be fine. as difficult as it is to plan everything and schedule everything and get everything done, i'm going to be fine. i'm going to work through it, stay focused, and, with Sean around, i'll be able to handle everything and have fun. Everything is great.\

My most favorite thing ever is just sitting watching TV with Sean at night. We sit, cuddle, talk.. sometimes i'm on my computer and he's farming (*eye roll* but that's only because i give him a hard time about it.) and the tv is on and it's just relaxing. the only downside is that sometimes i'm forced to do my homework. and sometimes i've already done it and i probably should still look over it. it's fine...

Buying books is going to SUCK. seriously. there goes my entire paycheck. adios, money. and i don't even care about one of them. health, specifically. boo.

speaking of homework and books and such, i should probably look over my homework for tomorrow.
so i'm going to do that.
awesome.

also, member my friend emily? She did our engagements.
here's one for the road.

love, Ellen

Barista Bashing.

it's the "not cool" thing to do. or whatever. but no, seriously... i've seen like 7 or 8 (or less.. maybe i'm just exaggerating) photos of people bashing baristas for being English majors with nothing to do with their lives or something. eugh.

this one frustrates me a lot. and do you want to know why? BECAUSE IT'S 'SPOSED TO. which is dumb. whatever. also, why penguins? doesn't make sense. or whatever.

Why? How did i just so happen to fall into the barista-english-major catagory? and why does this bother me so much?! I'm so.. just... ugh. whatever.

This one isn't totally directed at the english major barista scene... but still. also some of the things aren't applicable to me. like the stubble. or screenplay or degree...

Now, i'm not one to gloat. or enjoy pouring coffee for high schoolers... So this one frustrates me most.
[link because the picture wouldn't come up]

AUGH. this one. it's just.. it's just. ugh.

stupid. I'll just end it there because if i keep trying to find more things, i'm just going to frustrate myself the most.
anyway, have fun. or whatever people say now. i'm rarely hip with the kids.

~ellen

Turns out I still love eating peanut butter from a spoon.

true that. i love peanut butter. and now that i decided to take the jar into my room, it's even better. and i bought plastic spoons so i can just throw them away after. perfect.

now all i need is a stay-cold gallon of milk. Someone invent forever-perfect-temperature milk and i will be forever-perfect-happy. or whatever. i guess walmart-brand water flavorer will have to do. and i have 3 flavors of them. so it'll work. yeah.

In other good news, i really love living in Orem. Not that i don't love bountiful, but it seems like there's so much more to see and do and so many more people with such diverse backgrounds around here and i feel like i just fit in better by being me instead of pretending. I have great friends and a great job and cool classes and it's just great.

also, i super love 30 Rock. just amazing. and fruit by the foot and easy mac and sandwiches from work and  heating-y things. oh. and i'm SUPER EXCITED for Arrested Development to come back. so much.

I think i just wanted to post tonight so i did. I really want cheetos. they're on my grocery list next to milk and laundry detergent.

i'm just going to post this picture because i love it.

Erchap showed me this a while ago. i thought i'd share because it's so hott... if you want to see some more, go here. all the things on there are so so so great. so classy and great.

aside from that, i think that's all. but valentine's is coming. we'll have to see how that goes. hah...
~ellen~

also, how do you like the new layout?? I felt it could just use an update. Lemme know what you think!

A Little Artist Did This 2

A while ago and by that i mean earlier this week, i drew a picture of Doctor Who. Nerd, right. next.
Here's what it looks like:

Sometimes i do art. this is actually before i finished it. but my camera died and i need to go buy batteries. so maybe later i'll post an updated pic but it kinda looks the exact same. hah
good news: night classes are good.
i think i'm going to just have to sit back and let a lot of things slide in my ethics and values class though.. i kinda think of myself as a free-thinker who just thinks above everyone. not saying i'm so much better than them, but i can just accept everyone's opinions and i understand that no one is going to have identical views. I think if i start expressing my feelings that people will roll their eyes and say "Pick a side, Hippie!" but i like to find a common ground or happy medium or alternative choices. you know.. eh.

okay. enough of that. I'm going to go read some abstracts and save them for my bio class.
S'later.
and i might go make me some tuna.
~Ellen~

not going to throw up.

maybe. let's just say i've got news.

Good news: i'm done with my finals! except one online one. that's wednesday-thursday. and it's environment. pukey.
news: i might have some good boy stories coming up. how soon? no one can tell... or maybe they can. i'm sure some can. and then sometimes i'm like "eh.." and others i'm like "aaaaahhh!"
Other news: CHRISTMAS IS ALMOST HEEERRREEE! guess how excited i am. 100000%.
i'm still stuck on the boy news. i'm just. ahhhh. and ahahhhhhhhh. and like. ahehhhhhhahhh. you know? aahhhghhhhh
let's see some other things.. christmas...
oh! haircut. i'm getting one. it might look like this:

minus the purple. whadya think?
idk. i'll post a pic sometime. ahghhha.
ok. ok. i'm going to bed now. sleep in tomorrow! hair cut at 2. work at 4. date with Jayme at 9. awesome.
love ellen.

once upon a time...

okay. remember forever ago with the flirty boy and all? funny story... i helped him while at work today and Amy grabbed his card from my hands and looked for his name. Jesse. his name is Jesse. and he has an Alaskan drivers licence even though he's not from Alaska because he worked up there last summer.

and he flirted. again. Why must he be so handsome and cool? and then seem like he has a girlfriend. less cool. i'm so sad. weird thing...i typed that and then i watched tv and forgot i had written that last sentence. odd. whatever. here's hoping he doesn't have a girlfriend and that's like his sister or something.. that'd be cool. because he's super flirty. and i totally love his glasses. and face.

uhm.. something else. I went to salt lake last weekend. it was nice. me and some friends from my french class went and saw Like Crazy. dislike {more on that in a minute}. then we went to settebellos and it was delish and we rode trax and it was freezing. anyway. about the movie: ugh. i just. ugh. it was very open ended and was too ambiguous on the ending. i wanted them to be separate forever so that we could just get it over with. and it just felt like a big, long, sad love story where no one was happy and nothing was ever right. so whatever.

oh and i had a cell phone loss scare today. but i found it so no big deal. then i talked to my mom, my dad, and marcus on the phone. maybe i should lose my phone more often so i can have reasons to talk to people. hah. uhm... also some other things happened.

finals are next week! AGH! I have to have to have to have to have to have to study like a mill bazill.
something else at work today: we cleaned up what smelled like someone taking a potty break for several months on end that was hidden under the sink. it was super gross and i gagged. luckily, though, there was a pillar between me and Jesse so he didn't see me gag. it was gross. and that's that.

my feets hurt.
i'm gonna work on my paper now. night!
{elle}

Some [good] News

So it has been some time, no? yes. it has. I'll just give you some low-down and we'll be on our way.

let's see... so last post was about that **** project... let's go from there.
Went on sushi date with Erchap. Super yum. We went to Happy Sumo. sooooo yumm. I had a sunomono roll (from the inside out: avocado, tuna (i'm pretty sure), wrapped in cucumber). Super delish. I guess i'm better at sushi than erin is because i ate all my roll and didn't gag and she ate most of her roll and gagged on mine and then i finished hers for her. so that's good. both were yummy. then we went to a magical candy and toy shop by happy sumo that i can't remember the name of and it was super amazin. then we chilled and did laundry at her place. chill.

the next day, i did some stuff and went on a date with my wardie Marcus. it was cool. we went to Noodles and Company and it was yummy and he said he doesn't think anyone judges me by my age. which is nice but i sometimes think they do. a lot. but whatever. and i went to work and school too but that was a bum and you don't want to know about that.

hmm.. oh, yeah. i went home for the weekend. I got home friday night and just chilled with the 'rents. then saturday i woke up at 5:30. and then got ready and went to high school. the bus left the high school at 6:45ish with all the debaters on it. I judged the HS debate squadrons in a tournament. it was interesting and cool. and sort of stressful. but cool. and i got paid for it. that's nice. it was just a long long day. but it was fine. and i'm real glad i'm not a high-schooler anymore. phew.

i got back on sunday and went straight to mormon food night. it was suuuper yummy. mega yum. then we went to ward prayer and chilled and then we hungout for a while and then i went home and my fren Jenny came over and stayed the night. we watched Tron and i did my homework. until 2:30. in the a.m. so basically i'm pooooped. and i've gotta read like 5 chapters of Omni's D. (omnivore's dilemma. but i like my nickname better.) for my writing class tomorrow. shoooot. don't want.

and i love pinterest. and we had fhe tonight and it was wweeeeeird. we played a game called "winkums" or something where you had to grab people after they were winked at. it was weird. but funny. and then we played "do you love your neighbors" which is hilarious. Do you love your neighbors? No, but i do love beards. (seriously one of my answers. lolz)

okay. this whole deal has been leading up to this. Member that time i went on my very very first date ever? I was 16 and he was 19? 3 days from his mission? well, it's been 2 years. And now he's back! and i talked to him and gave him my number and we're gonna do something in some weeks when i come back. i'm actually really excited. yay!

oh, and i got my first debit card. it has a pic of my silly kitty in a sink on it. i love it. some people think it's weird but i don't have a mate yet and i don't want a picture of me on it.. and anything else i love has copyrights all over it. so cat it is.

and i think that's all. Also, the Drums are really cool. here's a vid:

{Look! I can put a vid on now! not a loser!}
~ellen

Why today started out as quite possibly the worst day of my life...

you know what this is? a dam. a broken dam. that's like my morning.

Here's how it went down: Woke up, showered and got ready and all was normal. Left on time, didn't know about the 3 different construction sites (2 of them being new) and was running late to class. Got there 3 minutes (ish) late and then a girl in my class said "is it you're groups' day to present?" "Who is even in your group?" and i was like **** **** **** **** **** **** in my head and out loud i'm like "fml." The girl who was in my group never gave me the power point and the boy never did anything because he broke his collarbone.

So the teacher comes in and says where's the group who's presenting today and i raise my hand nervously and he says come up. shooot. so i go up there, quickly text my group and tell them to get their little fannys over here, and go to the EPA website and look up acid rain for to use it as my power point because, as aforementioned, i don't have it. I explain acid rain as best i can and how we can make it better and all that and then i go into questions and my prof says to not give me easy questions or hard ones, but reasonable ones and i answer them best i can with my partial-knowledge of the subjects.

I finish and the prof tells them to rate me gently due to the fact i went in alone and he also brought up his power point and said he'd go over it more in class next time and give us a "take home party" he calls tests. Then he says he wants to see me after my 10 o' clock class.

I go to my french class, take a test i feel okay about, buy myself some peanut butter m&ms, and chat with my friends for a sec. then i go back to my prof and we talk about why none of my group was there and if it was my fault for poor planning and all that. He tells me to come up with my own in-depth power point and send it to him along with 10 test questions about acid rain that will be on the next "party".

at least he was nice about it and didn't come down too hard on me. I told him like 3 times that i'd rather be in another group and that my group wasn't going to come together no matter how many times i tried. I was still stuck in the same "group". and one of the worst parts of it is that only the guy in my group apologized and said with it that he was going to drop the class anyway be he hadn't told me. And the girl was at work. Who schedules a class at the same time they work!? idiot.

But at least tonight will be better. I'm going to a sushi date with Erin. yummm.

and i've gotta get to work on writing a paper for my lit class. at least i'm going home this weekend. i neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed it. a mill.

~elle camino

Golden Slumbers

not a reference to death. It's a beatles song. Yes, i'll talk about halloween, but i also wanted to mention some funny sleep experiences i've had lately so this was perfectly applicable. yeah.

i've been having weird dreams a lot lately. I woke up this morning laughing. and i can't remember what i was laughing at. All i remember is Marcus my ward-mate telling me to listen to the song that the evil people were singing and hearing them try to find a rhyme for something and instead saying "lime" and then us cracking up and then i woke up laughing. too bad i can't remember what it was...

and then this afternoon i took a nap and i remember some of it.. i went to this place i can't remember the name of but the manager lady said these words "it's like social sex." and i'm like what? and then i pay and go in. they put a blindfold on you but it's a see-through, plastic bandanna and then you're lead into a room, put on the floor and told to go. then you scurry around and find someone and start talking to them. and apparently you're allowed to sit in somewhat compromising positions (not like hold your horses, cowboy. but more like you're sitting awful close, mister...) and just chat the whole time. but the whole time was like 2 minutes. it was just weird.

remember how halloween was, like, yesterday? oh, it was. hurrah! it seems like forever ago. probably because i took that nap at 2 today and it was solid. anyway. Halloween was good. A bunch of my ward-mates gathered and we went to the pizza pie cafe in provo, ate, and then went back to Marcus's to tell scary stories and then watch the Doctor Who episode Blink. very very good. all the people were kinda disappointed though that no one really died and it was all happy in the end. but that's okay. it's still good.

speaking of the Doctor, i just finished watching the series! I'm all caught up! yeah! And my friend Alex said she saw a Matt Smith walking around campus yesterday but i missed him!! And i'm so sad. But i'm fixed on the theory that it was the real Doctor and he had to visit the school because there is something alien-y going on and he had to save the day.

And my roommate got a date! Yay! I'm so happy for her! I hope this turns out well and everything is super great! Super awesome.

And i think that's all. now i'm going to go finish my response to Meat-glue. Oh, for your food-y English class? nope. my Environment class. Sheesh, i might as well just combine them into one and say good. stupid. 
anyway.


à plus tard!
~E~

Sho-out.

it's juss shout out mixt to one word. Sho-out.

This one goes out to Emily Mensing for being able to quote my blog. lolz. So cool. Follow her new blog HERE. she's great. On wednesday night, we went to Maverik and got hot chocolates and then drove around the round-a-bout 6 times (barf) and then chilled. twas cool. she's cool. We're friends. yeaaah. (pretend that was a really great song with some really nice riffs). 


This next one goes out to my fam. Ma famille sont amusant, drôle, et bien. J'aime beaucoup ma famille. (translation: My family is fun, funny, and good. I like my family a lot.) I'm at home for the fall break (aka UEA aka Deer Hunt). It's super nice just to sit at home and have my family chillin around me and not worrying if they're judging me because i left a bowl in the sink or i haven't cleaned up the bathroom in a while or that i keep accidentally forgetting to clean the blasted microwave. It's also nice to have dvr, less traffic, someone to talk face to face to, someone to show funny junk to (without them thinking it's not funny.) or just anything. it's way comfier at home. even though i like the people in Orem more. if only i could have the best of both worlds: family and orem peeps. that'd be cool. but whatevre. 


And a sho-out to my lit professor! thanks for the B+ on my paper. I'm really pleased with it. And thank you for the insight, my next paper will be that much better. And, dear English prof, please don't judge me too harshly on my second paper. i'm okay with the C on my first, but i'd really like at least a B- or B or anything. is there a C+? because even that'd be nicer. but whatever, be fair. 


and i think that's all. I'm going to go to bed now cuz i'm tired and i'm trying to fit the last month's worth of lost sleep into one 4 day weekend. i'm sure i can do it. or something. 
Night!
-elle

Flirt Boy part 2

remember that guy i was telling you about? yeah, he came back AGAIN!! And he's even cuter than i remember. still don't know his name... but still! And i want to know him so bad. like a million. Here are the things I know about him:

1. he wears glasses
2. he dresses well
3. he likes chicken bowls with veg.
4. he has a debit card. (Shoot! I should've checked to see if there was a name on it!)
5. he sat at a computer facing the cafe for like 4 hours today.
6. he dances to his ipod (love.)
7. i think he has a crush on me too. we made eye contact quite a few times.
8. it might be love at first sight

oops. and i don't even know anything substantial. and he doesn't know anything about me either. but i wanna give him my nunber. or just talk to him. or anything. annnyyythinng. 

i might go to bed early tonight.. i have to work early tomorrow. guh. and i'm dang tired. but whateves. 

love, ellen.

Youthful Energy

i have some. i actually have a lot. of both. Maybe not in equal proportions, but they're both there.

Turns out, i'm an incredible dancer. I won 3rd place at the 80's stake dance last night because i can really shake it. too bad i had to shake it to some weird "pop" music (whatever that is...) song. but i'm still awesome. i got a pack of victory tropical skittles. and a bunch of high-5's and a self-confidence boost. and a whole lot of day-after soreness. like paralyzing soreness. but it was still fun!

I hate to say it, but i'm kinda embarrassed about my age... all of the people in my ward are older than me and a lot of my classmates are older than me. All i have are class of 2011 sweatshirts and they screeeaaammm "Look how young I am!!" "I have no real-life experience!" "I'm a noooob!" and "So thaat's why she's not _____" fill-in-the-blank. maybe with "interested in dating me because i'm [probably] looking for an eternal companion."

man. my dishwasher is looouuud. i can hardly hear Titanic. yeah.. it's the only thing on tv. boooo no direct tv.. whatever. at least i have one. i cleaned the bathroom today. and mopped the floor in the kitchen. yay. oh and i hung out with erchap. it was rad. we ate some magnificent pizza and went to the mall for a spell and chilled and chatted. and looked at pics of Carl. yeah... i have a huge crush on him.

my head is singing "We watched Titanic and it didn't make us sad!" over and over because i'm watching it and i'm not sad a: because i don't get sad easily, 2: i can't hear it (as aforementioned) c: I love Leo DiCaprio a mill and he will never die to me. and when he does for real, i will be most sad. that is when i'll cry. possibly. or not... because i don't know him and i don't cry. Not heartless, just doesn't cry.

YAY! HAllowEEN Is COMING!! yay. yayaaayyyyyaaaay! it's my fave. and, and, i love how much candy i can buy for less. i'm gonna get a lot and then eat it over the span of till christmas. probably. oh. and i'm hungry now. I even ate 2 WHOLE pieces of pizza and lunch! and a bowl of oatmeal! blah blah.

oh, and if you want a shot of happiness with your morning coffee. or whatever you drink.. go to here and say "awww!" and "cuuuute!" and other things like that. seriously, it makes me so so happy.

that's all, she wrote.
-elle

contentedness

This week was certainly a make-up for the heck-tic mess that was last week. I don't even remember what happened because i was so flustered and stressed and it was not fun. in the slightest.

But this week has been really nice and fun. I was never in a tizz or panic-y. It's just been lots of good. if that makes sense... i'm just trying to remember why this was such a good week. I gave a guy in my ward my number. we played Halo on tuesday and it was fun. i killed some things. I'm really glad the real world isn't as violent and i hope that, if it does, the Doctor can swoop in and make it a peaceful place again. that'd be nice. and Jonny and me might hang out this weekend or something. idk. maybe the dance! (stay tuned for more into on that)

And a couple boys in my ward gave me their Joker pumpkin after famblynite. It's in my room on my dresser right now! and it looks like this:

It's really cool. and i'm very happy. it's painted greenish black on the back.

Oh, i'm at school right now. I have a class in an hour and a half and then i have work until 6ish. i close today. and then there's an 80's stake dance!! I hope it's real and good 80's and that, if it's not, they'll let me dj. because i know my 80's. even though some of the peeps in my ward were born there. you know... in the 80's. still.

And i'm watching Yellow submarine "The meanies are coming! The MEANIES ARE COMING!" on youtube at the same time. I have a paper due in my next class but i did it already and i really hope it doesn't suck. i hope it's actually really good. i feel good about it, but you know... blah and stuff.

And i guess you could say i'm on another epic Beatles kick. hhoops hah. no, it's cool. i like it.

 I'm thinking of buying a hot chocolate but i can just make me a free one in a couple hours. patience is a virtue, i spose. Seriously, though, it's freezing out here. there were like 2 days of autumn and then snow and cold and unhappiness. but i think it's going to warm up in a bit here. or at least it should. mother nature is a beast who is pms-y during spring and fall. short-tempered and quick to change her mind. sheesh.

and yeah, i think you're up to speed. so cool.