Don't Stop Me Now.

(Queen reference) Seriously, don't. I'm going to make it. it's going to be all good and we'll all live happily ever after. basically.

I went and perused my new apartment yesterday. It's awesome. The laundry room (yeah, not just a closet, yo.) is right across from my bedroom. I'm allowed to put things on the walls, i have a kitchen-full of counter space (like quadruple there is at home), and my flatmates seep pretty rad (one of them is on a student visa from Romania). I only share a bathroom with one other person and it's awesome. And school is about as far from home as it was from high school (that makes sense, right?). Awesome.

Oh, and I signed up for institute today. now i have to be up and in class by 9:00 every day, instead of just thrice a week. and then i have classes and work and eating and studying to fill the rest of my days.

I went out shopping for foodstuffs and make-up with mom today. I got a lot, i think. Hopefully enough to last a while. And i'm going to have my flatmates lay it out for me: who buys what, who cleans what when, where things are, that kind of thing. I bet i'll be able to get along just fine, especially since i have my own room. and there's a lot of storage and i can take a bike up there. I'll have to have Dad spruce one up for me... but that' no prob. and i'm also going to do all my laundry and have my car checked all before i go.

And Mom helped me plan out my budget. it's all good. i'm also probably going to have to get my books at my apartment. i have one coming in the mail to here home but i also have 2 going to my apartment. i'm sure i'll get them eventually. 2 of my classes i can't get books for yet either because they're only offered at the school or they're not even posted online, possibly non-existent but that's highly unlikely.

It's kind of a bummer that all my friends are moving down after me so we don't have much time to hang or whatever. but it's alright. i'll be able to make new friends and it's going to be all right. I found a hip hang-out spot where me and my mates down there can meet. it's a crepe shop called Roll-Up crepes. it's covered in owl things and it's got live music sometimes and the crepes are super yum.

I have a feeling college is going to be good for me.

Everything is working out and I really think this is where i'm supposed to be.

superrad.

Love, Ellen

Here.. we............. Go.

I hope you caught that. it's a Dark Knight reference. As the Joker's going to push the button to blow up the barges but it doesn't work. All of this is besides the point, like usual.. but i always like having a back-story to go with my post titles and cleverness and all that..

Just wait, i'm getting to the exciting parts...

areyoureadyfordis?!

I GOT THE JOB!!! Most of you who read this probably already know, but I'm still so stoked! i didn't want to jinx it totally so i only told a few people i even had an interview. then i had another interview (mind you, both of these were in Orem so i had to drive an hour there and an hour back for each of them). Then, as i was walking around Urban Outfitters today (makes me sound hip, right? but really, i couldn't afford anything in there. i was just a side-kick, really.) i get a call. "Hello, is this Ellen?" "Yes, it is!" (me probably being way too excited) "We would like to offer you a position." AHHHH!!!

ok, i'm definitely making this seem like 90 million times more exciting then it should be. but i'm stoked. as many of you know, i've been on the famous job-hunt since like a year ago. and now I finally have a job! I start on Monday the 22nd. Just a couple days after i move in! But it will definitely help keep my mind off of being homesick.

AND! It's on-campus! so i will probably know the school pretty well by the time it starts. at least a little bit better than nothing at all. which is about where i am now.

I'm also going out to check out my living sitchiashun (sorry. sometimes i do stupid things and i decide to leave them. deal with it.) on monday which is awfully exciting. and IKEA. I love, i'm excited.

Everything Is Working Out!

all proves that the power of prayer is real and testimony and yeah yeah. woo! I'm so happy! I can do this now. Everything will be alright. yes.

Oh, and an exciting side-note. i was planning on trying to keep this a secret for a while, but whatever. I'm Getting new Specs this week!! They're kind of angularly circular. yes! i'm stoked. i'll post pics as soon as i get them. yah!

and that's all. thanks for dealing with this roller coaster for a while. it's fun, right?

no. i hate roller coasters.

whatever.

love, Elle Guapo

I feel...

• Awesome.
• Old.
• Grown-up.
• Ready.
• Weird.
• Tired.
• Sick.
• Different.
• Insane.
• Terrified.
• Excited.
• Nervous.

50th post! And a poem.

As you can concur from the post title, this is my 50th! woop! i mean, i've been blogging before this, but this is this blogs 50th post.

So the good news i was hinting at either hasn't come yet or isn't coming. i'll keep you updated.

I started packing today. nuts, right? I have so much junk... ugh. anyway... i'm excited. i'm still pretty much a wreck.. but that's ok. and i'm glad i accidentally accepted that loan. blah blah...

AND! I've an Eye appointment tomorrow! You know how much i love my specs. I wonder if i'll get a new pair or something similar or something different... idk, we'll just have to see, i guess! (hah. see. vision jokes...)

And, as I said, I just whipped out this poem. It's kind of inspired by this amazing vid. but it's about dancing and it's not near as good. but i'll just let you have it. unedited, too.

How I learned to Dance

I once didn't know how to dance.

i'd never taken classes, but

as soon as i realized the only true

rules to dancing, i would be able to

move forever. the trick is to

let your body move with the music,

not to it. Let the movements flow from

your body as the drum beats, as the

lyrics swoon in your opened ears, as

the melody wraps itself around you

like a hug from a friend.

I'd hear the words "dance like no on is watching"

but i knew they were. the key is to

be okay with it. Let your motion

inspire and intrigue them. Let their

wandering eyes dance along with you.

never choreograph unless necessary.

never be bothered if you're alone or in a group.

either way your body is yours and

will move no matter who's around.

Dancing is an art form like painting or sculpting.

just let all the things holding you back

flow away from your body as your arms

and legs travel from

one position to the next.

If you stumble, incorporate it.

If you fall, let it become part of the plan.

and last,

take breaks to re-hydrate and rejuvenate and

give others a chance

to dance.

love, ellen

And it keeps getting better...

seriously, it does.

But i don't want to jinx anything, so i'll save the news for when it comes.

probably monday.

but other than that, everything is going smoothly. i've been moving a lot of music onto my lappy so i can sync my ipod to it and blahblahblah. also, i got a new printer too. it's a good, simple, cheap one. hallelujah.

hmm... what else... i've been cleaning my kitchen every other day and mowing the lawn sometimes... but who cares about that, right?

And, i'm still working on the vlog. i don't know if i wanna do this thing right now for real because i've got a lot on my mind and i don't really have a real great camera to do it with. just my built-in webcam. so... blah yeah.

And that's basically it.

love, Elle Camino

Something New

hah. it wasn't till after i typed that that i realized that's one of the 4 things for a wedding (something old something blue... etc).

But that's not the point I wanted to make. Mainly, i just wanted to say this:
I'm going to start a Video Blog.

I deffo got the inspiration from Charlie McDonnell and Liam Dryden .
Yes, i realize both of these people are foreign and men and older.
BUT anyone can vlog and they started their vlogs years ago.
So i'm just going to do that. and it's gonna be cool. i'll try putting my vids on here from youtube.
it'll be cool.
and that's all.

Love, Ellen

Welcome

to the month where everything changes. New friends, new school, new house, new financial problems, new job, new life.

After my meltdown last night, i've finally come to terms with things. Somewhat. I still have no idea where i'm going to get my money from and i'm still freaking out about being able to pay for everything, but i'm okay. I know God will watch over me and get me where i need to go.

I still don't know who my roomies are or what the living arrangement is or anything... so that's a little stressful... but it's okay. all okay. i'll learn and we'll work it out and everything will be alright.

And i'm sorry about my last post and how depressing it was. I was just frustrated and confused and worried and angry. and i definitely don't wanna write any of that stuff down in a journal because my journal is kinda specifically for what happened and not my feelings. that's what a blog is for. plus i'd be okay reading either of these things out to someone else. i don't have much to hide. and when i do have things to hide, i just write them in a Word doc and that's the end of that.

Anyway, i hope this month doesn't suck. and that i can deal with everything and that it'll all be okay and i won't freak out and get homesick. and that i'll get over my stupid anti-people funk.

whatever.

love, Ellen

oh, and i like this. (sorry. you get a link because i still can't embed any vids on my blog even with the new lappy. i think it's a blogger problem.)